it's been sometime since i last blogged . feeling rather emo tis few day and i duno why too ;
ppl who knows me well know that i wasn't behaving like my normal self , the talkative and crazy girl who use to joke ard have gone ~

skip morning lesson on tuesday due to revising my WBP exams , but after all it's too hard and i doubt i will pass too :(

didn't attend sch due to appointment for checkup ~ shit ! my swollen eye is back again ! it's so saddening lohs ~ haiish , so many things in my mind le and my eye still doesn't wanna get well ~ there's so many following check up to go :( went hospital myself ~ den waited for a long time b4 my turn , took bus down to meet up with theONE- ppls but not all (ahxing, javier,yangyang,huihui,guigui,xiaoling) but theONE- consist of 8 ppl with joses and me (: do add our friendster and link our blog up (:
headed to xiaocloud bday , snap and chat with them ~ left after awhile , headed to lot 1 for my lunch cum dinner as i din eat at cloud's place ~ only guigui,huihui,xiaoling and me went to eat while the guys left to xiaojia bday .. we ordered 4 bowl of same food , and we only manage to finish half bowl each . chatted alot with them , saw winnie and bibi . den headed toilet to snap ~ took bus hme with xiaoling , while guigui and huihui cab back to tamp (:

it's vesak day , went down to tamp mall to meet up with guigui and huihui with xiaoling . met cesar on the train , but he headed expo for event . something super funny in the train and it's super lame ! rch tm and waited for the 2 of them and we walked ard , there's super lots of ppl ~ den headed pasta mania for dinner . after dinner , went over to huihui hse to slack :D use com and talk and of cos snap (: den joses arrive , talk and slack too till ard 10 den went off to train back to jurong :D fun day out with the girls , we plans lot of things !! :D

friday , went to sch , saw him when i walk out of locker , we din talk and nt even a hello , went up to class , emo-ing in class , teacher gave work and i finish it (first time!) ppl say im not behaving like my ownself ~ i agreed too but i duno why .. finish sch and took 154 hme , prepare and headed to meet xiaoling and xiaocloud , we wear the same cardigan ! but we din plan it ~ meet up with winnie babe and walk over to cine , meet javier there , and waited for the rest . went up to kbox for k session . was fun but i din talk or sing much , did snap pics with my beloveds ~ they brighten up my day and i love them :) aloy and valen ask me up to lvl 8 as they are singing there too , headed up and sang duet song with them cos they got no girls , snap and went down again , finish at 9pm and headed food court for lunch cum dinner , din finish my meal at all , after that headed up to cheers and slack and snap pics , met up with kris lion cub (i gave him the name !) and chatted , my girls and others when over to cuppage while i din , waited for javier and he drove me back to cck and i cab hme , thanks sweetie (:
upload pics and went off to bed ;

slept at 5am and woke up to reply smses ~
met up with grace today !! weets ~ fun day out :D
liyun darling and javier wanted to go bugis too , so i meet them and took bus down with them , darling went to eat while i waited for grace to come , meet her over at BK and went to LJS to eat again (: hehes..xD ~ den went to bugis V to walk ard , im looking for my TEEs while she's looking for her necklace , she dint bought it cos cnt find :( keep seeing darling they all so in the end , meet up with them and went to take neoprints and snap ( hope that grace will not feel it bored when with my friends , sorry too ! ) den took train down to town again , last day at town i guess , it's kinda bored there ~ saw some people only as lots of ppl went MIA i guess~ went back hme early today , took 190 den change 180 den to 98 and back home , a long journey but i dun mind as i can use the time to think of many things ~ im still emo ~ :(
upload pics and chatted with friends ;

i cannot get to sleep as there's many things in my mind ; haish ~

to him : you might still not feel my love for you , i did alot of things for you and hope u really appreciate it , i duno whether did you still continue reading my blog like u used to do it but i hope after reading tish you will feel better , i noe you are stress up too ~ if you dun love me , just do let me know truthfully , i wouldn't want to force a love as it wont last at all , i know many ppl would like us to be together but the decision still lies on you, friends of yours are trying to put us tgt and i noe u face lots of stress bahs , i'm sorry if i have put you in a difficult state ~ ( and of cos i would thanks ur classmates ) but i still wont force you to love me of cos ~ if you really dun love me , do let me know , and they will stop disturbing you in class , i know you nid time , it's more than enough i guess ~ it's alright if u still have not make up ur decision , to be or not to be with me . i have think thru myself tis few nights ~ i dun wanna see u so stress up and get disturb by ya friends , of cos if u would wan me to let you go , i will ~ ( but it will be the most hardest thing ) i love you deeply down my heart , if u dun love me , of cos i would let u go and continue to love u silently like i use to do ~ ( im always asking myself over and over again thay why will i fall in love with you , my mind keep asking me to leave you but my heart continues to stay on loving you ) i duno what can i do to destress you , all i wan is that you can be happy and i will be contented bahs ~ LOVING YOU IS SO HARD and i cried ~ haish ~ all i want is to get love back in return~ it's been someday since we last chatted . i miss the chatting and jokes we used to have , i miss the outing , i miss the shooting stars , i misses every single moment i spend with you and of cos i miss you lots~ BOY , DO I EVER CROSS YOUR HEART ?
I LOVE YOU, SO DO YOU ?
WOULD YOU BE THERE TO LOVE , TO BE WITH ME ?
how i wish that we belong together , but fate doesn't wanto put us together ~ sighs :(
you are my desire , my love , my boy , my soul and you are my everything ~
i simply love you deeply till i really couldn't express myself anymore ,
ii will always be the guardian angel and shadow to accompany with when u nid helps and i will be a great listening ear ~
FREDRICK LOO ; YOU ARE THE ONE ~
I LOVE YOU ~
GREAT MISSES ~~


pics will be load soon (:
i loves and misses my beloveds and of cos HIM !!!