im sad ; im confused ; im lost ; im moodless and im useless ;
that's what i can describe my feeling right now :x

many many things happened recently ; niknik call mi and cry on fone ytd when im in SA Room ;
ii was like ; how am i going to console her ~
sighs , different ppl telling me different stories ;
i really duuno who to believe ; so i rather believe myself :x
ii told darling that we are kelian ; haiish ~
let's bygones be bygones bahs ; i dun ask for more too ~
no more misunderstanding ; backstabbing and everythings behind each other back ,
i have learnt a lesson , so do you all ~
the past is always memories alrights ; but i got a sad one ~
in life ; we gonna learn to FORGIVE & FORGET ~
that's what i won't forget ; give in whenever we can ~
no matter in relationship ; friendships ; sisterships and family , we must FORGIVE AND FORGET :x

no ppl can understand my feeling now ;
i just can't get everything out of my mind or even tell anyone ; i just keep it to myself bahs ~

ii really misses him like hell :x
haiish ~
my tears rolled down ; when i misses him ~
he's always on my mind and kept in my heart ;
perhaps to you ,我是个傻瓜,是个笨蛋..
tears rolled down when im listening to the song 好朋友 ;

especially the part : 曾经以为等待会改变什么你总会属于我但是最后时间证明了你只喜欢我你说我比较像你的好朋友只是不小心拥抱着你道歉 你难过于是我给你笑容谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞如果爱情是五线谱我只希望用全音符吟唱出爱上你那完整的幸福当你的心没有耳朵即使我为你唱这歌你也只看见我哭了你说我比较像你的好朋友只是不小心拥抱着你道歉 你难过于是我给你笑容谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞 ...

all i can say now is only 爱我 非你莫属 ;

再靠近一点点就让你牵手
再勇敢一点点我就跟你走
你还等什么时间已经不多
再下去只好只做朋友
再向前一点点我就会点头
再冲动一点点我就不闪躲
不过三个字别犹豫这么久
只要你说出口你就能拥有我..

4 more days to have my small operation on my eye :x
im scare ; how i wish that im brave but i cnt ~
the pain will be in my body ~
IM SCARE OF PAIN :x

Can you tell me something?
Do you want me to go,and if I lefted you tomrrow,
would You even know,
so do you reallyLove me, because it hardly everShows,
just tell me, so I can know.
Can you tell me something?
Would you just watch me, as IWalked away,
or would you beg For me to stay,
becacuse I'm waitingAnd my hearts decaying,
I reallyNeed to know, do you want to let go?
Now I'll tell you something,
I'm still holding on. . . to what?I do not know. . .
my mind says leave but my heart says no,so I'll roll the dice,
and won't think Twice,looks like my heart has Won. . .
but I still need to know-if you love me so. . .

sometime i really felt like giving up but my heart say no :x
i'm deeply in love with euj gnaihc ool kcirderf <3
i miss you deep down my heart ;