im back blogging (:

it's no longer misunderstanding ;
i realise everything single lil things over a night ~
i treat you as such a nice and sweet lil girl and yet u do this behind my back ;
ii really cnt face the facts till they told mi all abt it ;
i have trust in you ; helping you to say nice things but yet i cnt believe that you are tish kind of ppl ~ since you wanna treat me lidat ; i got nth to say ~
dun treat me good infront of me and backstabbed me with tales to others ;
it's really do hurts alot alot deep down my heart ;
i realise that i don't worth a single cent to you :(
and ; i cnt realise that you are just the one who are trying to do many things behind me ;
you are the one who say that fredrick and i got no hopes instead of others ;

fri : headed to skool ; was raining and felt restless but still attend as i din attend it for thursday lesson aldri due to my swollen eye ; after skool headed home and online + chat with peeps and vcds all day long till mom bought me dinner and continue watching till 10 plus ; din went out due to swollen eye..

sat : i am suppose to meet liyun darling at 230pm but i woke up at ard 145pm !! oh gosh ; i cnt believe it myself too ~ i was on the fone the previous night and i left my fone to silent mode ~ luckily i did woke up ; darling , im sorry yehs ~ msg her and off to prepare ; met her up at lot 1 at ard 330pm ~freddie aiai called me and we chatted while waiting for darling to arrive ; saw her and went to eat my breakfast cum lunch at LJS ! long time since i last ate it ; im missing it lots can :) den walk ard the shopping mall ; walk pass missha and ii saw jasmine dearie , long time since i last saw her .. shall meetup soon with her and huiwen sweetie :)) after that headed to arcade ; not to play but for NEOPRINTS !! it's been a long time since we have neos !! ahahs..xD ~ misses those honeymoon we used to have ; hahs..xD ~ while designing; realise that the pen was spoilt ; find that person and told them but they dun care ; took such a long long time for them to change another pen for me ; design and loving it :D after that , it's almost time for me to leave to meet up with Brother Joses at bugis at 630pm and im aldri late ; left cck at ard 6pm and train down ~ and i left darling alone :( im sorry ; den she went to meetup with her bf ..

when training down ; wendy mei called me up ! was too late my dear .. hahas.. xD ` she asked me up to her hse for steamboat dinner for her bday celebration ; i promise her i will go after i meetup with fwens ~ he told mi that xiaosin will be heading up too ; so i rang him up and discuss ; i told him i will be late .. hahas..xD ~ rang up with brother joses and he told me that he's still home so meet up with xiaojess special first .. went arcade and look for her ... saw peeps playing RF4 !! freaking pro can !! haahas..xD ~ retarded forever falfen gonna meet me up as jess told him im will be there .. so meet lo.. went to lan area to look for him and shouted "RETARDED FOEVER " lame !! :P walk ard bugis ; went out to MOS to look for jeffery but i guess he went off ; den walk over to topshop to shop ; alex brother called me up and we met up to say HELLO and he went off to fusion while jess and i went in to topshop to shop ; brother called up and went back to arcade to wait for him ; accompany retarded to have dinner over at Big Bird and we have ours too ; waited for yangyang and chris to arrive b4 eating ... den tish guy walked in and i find him familar .. BOOHOO .. when he talking to brother and jess and he asked you mable? den i realise it's joseph ~ hahas... discussing where to go after eating ; tot of heading cine to meet snowboi de but he aldri left to boat quay , in the end after some photosession headed down to cine by bus ~ reached cine ard 9pm and saw freaking lots of peeps outside cine ~ went outside cheers and they saw their fwens ; was standing at a side with brother and chris and a guy walk pass me and say , you mabel ? you mabel rite ? LOLS..xD !!! and ii see clearly and i realise it's KUKU BIRD ANDY !! hahas..xD ~ saw lots of peeps there , slacked outside cine and headed up to arcade as yangyang wanna play 'lorry' while we sit outside and snap ... Juensu is so cute can ! he's asking me y i look so funny in the pics ! LOL..xD and ask me pay him $30 for snapping ~ ahahs ~ snap + chat and walk down to slack outside again , saw jiaxin dere ; she's pretty ~ :D
and not to forget while slacking outside ; i saw my JOVEL !! i super miss her can ~ hohohos.. and i forget who i saw and who i talk to ~ BOO :x

left cine ard 11plus tgt with jess;yang; brother;chris ;xiao eric and walk over to mrt station .. only brother me and jess took to marina side while others to woodlands ; they waited for our train to arrive b4 they left .. saw joseph again ~ and he left with us.. he headed to redhill so i got co :D we talk in the train and craps ; he asked me down to zouk on may29 ; he took my no. and i gave him ; thanks jojo for saying me young but the facts is still im twenty aldri :D

train down to JE ; alight walk to cab down to fetch xiaomei and dear; saw xiaomei fwens while walking ; get up a cab and the uncle is freaking irritating !!! headed down to 61 to look for xiaosin (: BUT !!! he at market dere so we got to walk over ; duh ! seat down and chatted and i found out the truth ! i noe that she told dear sth and she hated me for the whole moment and finally we clear the misunderstanding between us ; forces my sister to say out everything and i realise that y she drift apart from me ; i really cnt believe it and i really cannot believe it !!!
i felt so upset after that when i heard from everyone that i've changed .. but it's wasnt me at all ! finally i noe that who's wrong and who's right over a night ;
have a nice chat with xiaosin as he say my attitude changes over the past 2 yrs ; i noe i did changes from a real nice easy going girl to a girl full of stress now ! i will be lidat due to some reasons ; i use to be a girl that will not rmb revenge or put anything in heart and i cannot do that anymore as i get hurts and hurts over and over again ~ im still trying to be that kind of person but i really can't :(

chatted and chatted ; bought tibits and drink and snapping session till 4 plus in da morning and accompany dear and sister home ; while xiaosin and me walked over to the reservior for a nice chatting ; reminds me of the past 2 yrs with all those memories and listen to a song he used to sang b4 we left and cabbed home at ard 6 plus .. he cabbed me till i rch home b4 he headed home (: thanks yehs ! :D

bathe and slept and i off my fone to silent mode again ! i din meant to do it derh as im really very tired after so many things :( woke up at ard 2pm with miss calls and msgs ! sister called me to meetup and i say ii gona meet up with freddie too (: so we met tgt at entertainment ; i was late again due to application of med to my swollen eye ; went out with shade today ! ahaas..xD ~
den after that met them and went for neoprints again ; first neoprints with dear and freddie ! ahahs..xD ~ PHOTOWHORING b4 sending dear off and headed imm for my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner :D walked ard b4 leaving off at 8 plus and bus-ed home (:
online and chatted with peeps once again .. send pics to dear and darling and submitted pics to freddie as he din online (: chatted on fone b4 i slept ..

ytd after sch rush home and prepare and went for movie with ruizhi and co ; spiderman 3 ; i almost doze off inside ~ LOL..xD ~ a big fat boy sit beside me and he's scary !! when he laugh i laugh too , just too funny can ! i wanna catch 200 pounds ! lols..xD ~ after movie , went for dinner and arcade and headed to bukit timah for pool .. they played while i play with ruizhi's PSP ! was so crazy over it , ii play puzzle bobble and i realise that im a pro ! :) as ii got to 70 plus level within short hrs :DD after that headed home , online and chat :D

skip sch today ; went over to polyclinic and checkup for my eye infection ; it's refer me to NUH for operation tish monday , oh god ! im scare can ; the PAIN in me ~ sighss :((

freddie : you are always the guardian angel of mine as you always solved lots of problems for mi ; i appreciate everythings you have done in the past , really thanks for everything you did :) misses those moments we use to have together especially those outing ! but i dun tink the whole grp will be back again as there's so many things that had happened and many one do drift apart aldri ; i misses those day we chatted on fone ; the sweettalk you gave and those msg you send .. you are sick now , do rest well and drink more water to get well soon alrights . Lastly , hope that you and xiao C can get tgt ; just finding that you all are just a sweet lil couple and i know you two will lasts long. I will bless you tish couple with all my heart ; do hold on to each other tight and nv let each other go. As what i told xiao C ; aiai + keaiis = AI ! =) we shall be gan aiai for lyfes :) thanks for everything ! you ; my guardian angel . LOVES .

daddy : im sorry for the misunderstanding and thanks for forgiving me yehs :) hope you find ur 'dreamgirl' soon !! you shld noe what i mean ; dun miss the chance as there's only one . Do takecare and meet up soon :)

Limin Dear : finally we clear the misunderstanding between us ; i tot you hate me lots and you tot i hate you lots . afterall its just a misunderstanding . Let's bygone be bygone ; and not blame anyone .. i din put anything in my heart as i learn to forgive and forget. do hope that you will find ur Mr.Right soon and just go for it and you will have my support . do takecare and meetup more (: LOVES & MISSES ~

sister : sister,iloveyou !! you are really my true sister and i finally wake up to find that who's wrong and who's right :) no one can break our bond. let's bygone be bygone and not to blame anyone ; i noe i did upset you and dun put anything in yr heart alrights ... i didn't meant to do it at all ; it's been a long time since i have a nice chatting with ya, after that day ; i realise everything :) thanks for being a great sister that shares our secret and everything tgt ; sister iloveyou and happy 19th birthday in advance and hope you enjoy it and find him soon (: LOVESLOVESLOVES <3

Liyun Darling : Precious girl ; i miss you and all those happy moments; i guess you have heard alot of bad things of mine le bahs ; thats really caused a big misunderstanding among each other ; i dun noe how to face it now too , we are the best darling now and forever ; i really hope that we can last forever ; misses all those honeymoon session we used to have ; no one can break us apart even if he/she does.. if you feel anything upset abt me do let me noe .. let's bygone be bygone alrights (: i learn to forgive and forget and give in to ppl ; you are my girl for lyfes with much loves.

Charles : Big bully brother !!! thanks for everything and everything , you are really a nice and good brother to me ; whenever i nid help you will be there to help mi as much as you can .. i do appreciate everything brother ; and you understand me most in the test ! keke :) brother ; i hhope you will find your one & only one soon (: as i dun tink that i would stand a chance to be with him le .. haishh ~

Fredrick: boy, do you think that avoiding is a good idea/way ? i dun tink as it can't solve any problem at all; i noe you need time and here the time i giving you now ... ii really misses those day we use to chat alot , the lala land stories ; the shooting stars we saw tgt at sentosa and everythings !! you say u cnt promise me anything now and it's not that there's no chance and cnt tell me yet .. i noe that you really nid time and i will give .. dun ever forget that im still waiting boy . Do take good care of urself ; rmb to eat on time and drink more water and nv fall sick ; when the time is right , do let me noe , i will be always there for you as i believe time proves everything . DUMMBIES DUMMBIES;ILOVEYOU and I'M MISSING YOU DEEPLY NOW , FREDRICK IS LOVE !
you are mylove ; my desire and im waiting for you~