Wednesday, October 12, 2005

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Listening to : -
Mood : moodless..
Feeling : siansation..
toking to : chatting wif him in msn...

topic : i so moody today.........

Today mood is total siansation...oso duno why...was dragging myself to tis empty cold sch...somemore stomach pain...kaox..oso duno y arhx...i not in the mood today...i really nid to study liao le lo...cos exam is nxt wk le...i'm still not in the mood to prepare...really no mood at all...I really nid to study liao le....if not i will sure failed de...nxt wk jiu exam liao le...less than 7 day...omg...time passes so fast...till i oso duno...

i oso break wif him for one wk liao le...but i still missing n tinking of him every single moment...i still waiting for a person who dun love mii at all..i noe i shldn't wait for him de...it's hopeless...totally hopeless...Everytime when i wait for a guy to return i still can feel tat i still stand chances...but for him...i totally feel tat i'm jus hopeless le...not a single little chance at all...Jus feeling so hopeless...Really hope tat i can slp forever in moi dream n nv wake up lo...cos in moi dream i still gt a chance to be wif u...but in reality...dere's nth...or i hope tat i can lose moi memory..forget everything n start all over again...i nv tot of forgetting u....i will rmb u always...in moi 18 years of life...i met a person like u...i will rmb u always n always....

For Francis: Hmm...though i waited for ur call last night for long long hour...i still find it's worth it waiting for a guy i liked...though u nv call...i didn't blame u at all...cos is i xin gan qing yuan ma...it's really hurts to love someone who dun love u back in return...love really hurts lo...haiz...i really change to another person..last time de mabel haf aldri vanished...gone into another world liao le ma...I'm still waiting for u...though i noe is hopeless liao but i still hope tat dere's miracle...In many ppl heart...u r jus a bastard...but in my heart...u r not lo...u r jus a nice guy to mii...though sometime u treat mii so cold...i dun mind...it's ur choice ma..u still the guy i loved most in moi 18 year life...jus hoping n praying everyday tat u will gif mii a chance...I'm still waiting for u n loving u...i love u...sarang haeyo....aishiteru....miss ya...

Arghx...i really cnt take it lo...he told mii he gt stead liao le...i'm really hurts...wat to do now...haiz....haiz....feel like crying but holding back....i hope i won't do anything stupid...i'm jus a hopeless gal now....everything i wished for is all down the drain liao le...thsoe day u r wif mii maybe u r jus playing wif moi feeling....i'm jus hurt and hurt deep inside moi heart....a deep cut aldri inside when the day u break wif mii...but today the cut is deeper...deeper into moi fragile heart....broke into thousand of pieces....actually was wanting to go eat de...but now really dun feel like liao le...in a lost world...a world of darkness....I hate myself lots...feel like dying soon and everything will just solve....i want to be a hard hearted person liao le.....no point being soft hearted....

Stop here le...going hme soon i tink......

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