Saturday, October 08, 2005

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Listening to : -
Toking to : -
Missing/thinking of: him badly...
Mood: hai hao ba...

Topic: Happy to see him ytd nite....

Was so happy to see him last night....tot he doesn't wanna meet mii le...but ytd we met...at bukit timah....jus for dinner i oso happy lo...haiz...did try not to contact him le cos he dun like ma...but still not xi guan yet lo..ytd was happy tat he msg mii in msn...was kinda surprised....den at evening did call mii out for dinner...together wif maine,fred and wee cheng....at night i did send him a gd nite msg but he didn't reply...it's ok wif mii now..cos i did say tat i will let him to go to lead his own life...i cnt stop him from anything...even knowing gal is not moi problem liao le...all i hope now is to pray n hope tat he will come back to mii one day...But i noe...tis day will not come..maybe he aldri gt someone he like liao le....i jus can't stop him cos he no one to mii anymore...Wat if one day i saw him holding another gal hand cos when he found himself a gf...wat will be moi reaction...infront of him i will bless him but in moi heart will be deep cut....really hurts....

For Francis: Everyday when i haf no one to turn to...i will just turn to moi bloggie...write all moi feeling here...hope tat one day he will noe...i really hope tat we can like b4...msging each other...care for each other and even tok on da fone....but i tink it will not happen again...cos i tried moi best not to msg him to grant his wish...but i really wish i still can be like last time...tok to u...not in msn but on fone...when den i will haf tis chance...now i can oni gif u sometime and someplace to tink...but i gt the feeling tat u will nv be by moi side again...not even a chance of u coming back to moi side...but i really hope...u can dun nid to love mi as much as i love u...i will be happy tat u r by moi side...Just tinking when will be the day u will come back...Just wait n wait...even till moi heartbeat stop i will just wait...actually 2 day b4 i did tot of ending moi life just lidat...den after sometime of tinking..i nv..cos if i jus die lidat..i won't be able to see u again...and will nv be wif u again...even if i die...i really hope tat in moi nxt life...i will still be wif u..still choose u....Pls let mii love u once again...everyday i hope u will read moi blog...den i hope tat i will make u feel touch by tis one day..duno how long...maybe dere's no chance at all...actually in moi heart..i noe dere's no more chance...but i jus dun wanna gif up...mus jian chi dao di...bu fang qi...mus jiayou to win back u...i will wait till the day i make u feel touch n u get back to moi side...Hmm...anyway...i'm sorry to make u cry...i didn't meant it de..i oso did cry...even longer den u...Oh ya...u really must take good care of urself lehx...dun smoke too much cos u still coughing...anything u can still look for mii de...even if u wan mii to wake u up everyday for work i will...but u haf to tell mii lo...duno whether who's waking u up today oso...i really hope tat u really nid mii to wake u up..come n tell mii...i will sure help de...dun forget...tat's wat i used to do even b4 we stead..duno whether ytd he gt door to go in ma..actually wana ask him de but i stop myself..thanks for keeping moi foto too.. Thanks for loving mii once...is really worth waiting for the guy i loved...From moi bottom of moi heart...i miss u badly and nid u badly...i still love u alot....

Hmm...now holiday coming liao le...oso duno wat to do...maybe go work lo...work n work den won't tink too much ma...den can earn money liao buy thingy...wanna gif him a surprise...wanna buy something for him...the thing he long wanted...i really hope tat if i get moi pay liao first thing i will buy is the thing u long wanted...i really hope tat u won't reject it when i gif it to u...it's jus something i wanna gif it to u long ago...i will jus buy...the thingy u long wanted...

Kaoz..tat xiaoboi hor...really cnt stand him arhx...duno wat his mind tinking oso...keep asking mii to his hse to acc him....boy u tink too much le lo...i won't dui bu qi myself de...dun keep forcing mii...duno how many time liao le...everyone is saying...u r jus a dangerous person...omg...cnt believe wat he say to mii on fone..ask mi go his hse to do...omg..u noe wat he told mii...now u no stead liao ma...can come up le...if not u oso sian i oso sian...we both no stead now...u dun say i dun say who knows...pls la...i told u liao...i will not dui bu qi francis de lo...he's the guy i loved...i won't go up to ur hse de...dun force mii...i just won't...trying to stay away from u like other gal did...i oso duno wat will happen one day lo...now no one beside mii to help mii le...i won't get close to u de...even i haf no bf now...

Went for a new haircut ytd...some ppl say i look better but some dun feel so...i still okok lo...haiz...ugly jiu shi ugly de...no matter cut wat still ugly...i going to lose weight now...2 kg off le...i will continue...i wan 10 kg off...one meal a day...i noe is stupid...or maybe 2 meal lo...i jus wanna slim down...10 kg...can i do tat...8 more kg to go....Jia You...zai jie zai li worx......

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