Listening to : Jiang nan...
toking to : francis,matthew...
feeling : hurts...
mood: okies okies lo...
thinking/missing of : him lo...

Topic : I didn't meant to be hard-hearted...

Haiz...ppl say i change to a hard hearted person liao le...well...i do agree it too...I didn't meant to do tis oso de..But what will other tink,they might tink i'm cruel...everything was jus too fast for me to take it le...ytd i was just too rash....everything jus out of moi mind,i totally change to another person...even the one chatting in msn wif him wasn't the old mabel or even the one writting the bloggie...i totally change to another person...i oso cnt believe it myself too...

i was oni back to myself when i get scolding from moi frens...they keep asking mi to forget him but i jus cnt...ppl are scolding him idoit and even bastard...but i disagreed,i say that he's not...he gt his own choice nw....i oso duno why i keep saying gd things of him infront of moi fren...everyone ask mi not to be stupid liao le..it's not worth totally at all...they oso say tat i'm really a gd gal...nxt one will ne a better one...please dun wait le...you r no longer young anymore..how long can u wait lehx...till the day he gt married arhx....den u choose to gif up...haiz...wat my mind really tinking lehx...i'm really hurts....deep hurt cuts into moi fragile heart....i cried again..i really gt a great bunch of friends who really cares....

My six sense was right...the night when he was at west coast park...i aldri feel tat he will come and tell mii sooner or later he haf patch back wif his ex lo...i did told moi fren den they say i tink too much liao le...Hey...i nv tink too much lo...it reality lo...Omg..i cnt believe my six sense too...

Ytd nite was really surprise lo..xiaoboi ask mii to follow him to xin tua...he force mii to go one lo...to acc kaiyu...cos if i nv go she oso nv go...den i tink n tink whether i should go ma cos i rejected him too many time le...in the end i choose to go lo...den i tell xiaoboi tat wait i see him how...den he tell mii won't de la...so many ppl wont see him de...somemore many ppl sending god oso ma....den i took a cab dwn cos aldri 640 liao le....but inside the cabby,my mind is tinking tat i will see him de lo...but i really didn't expect to see him the moment i aloght from cab...Omg it was so fated...i called moi jiemei...told them...they r so surprise...even some guy told mii is so concidence arhx....moi mind was empty at tat time....i told xiaoboi n kaiyu i saw him even b4 seeing them lo...kaiyu say is fate la...haiz...i tink no one can believe i go dere oso will see him de...Ytd nite i was tink...the yan sheng francis looked at mii was so scary....as if i did sth wrong...the angry n dark face scare mii oso...den use the eyes to stare at mii...haiz...did i did sth wrong and he hate mi lots.....

For francis....Erm...really sorry abt ytd...i didn;t meant to show any attitude de...everything was jus yi shi cong dong...i didn't meant to be a hard hearted person too...you r nt to be blame actually...it ur choice now...is oni whether i can take it ma...i told myself tat i haf to be strong...i cnt be a hard hearted person cos it might lead to many misunderstanding btn him n mii...and we might nv be fren again....i did cry ytd cos i cnt hold it anymore so i broke moi promises...Anyway i'm still wating for u lo....a person who dun love mi at all...a person who it not worth waiting but i still choose to wait...wait till the day u return....Erm...anyway i'm here to bless the both of u...cherish her well but dun hurts her okies...My feeling now is totally sucks...i'm really hurts deep dwn moi fragile heart...i really hope i can slp forever in moi dream or even lost of memory...moi mind is still full of u every single moment....The choice is ur now...whether u still wanna tok to mi or msg mi depend on u le...i can do nth but oni wait...really hope tat we r still fren like b4 the days we stead lo...let mi know lo... i will be waiting...maybe fren is really better...anyway i will still wait fro u...still missing n loving u as b4...Francis i still love u...waiting for u since 031005...Francis wo ai ni chi xin jue dui...

Haiz...i'm nt in the mood to study...nt in the mood to eat...and not in the mood for k session....everything oso nt in the mood.....anyway thanks bryan for calling mii ytd to tok wor...hahas...promise to help u change blogskins....nid sometime le worx....tml nid to go sch again...cos hand in project if nt fail mus repeat....so stupid rite....