Saturday, September 17, 2005

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Listening to : ai Hen jiaN Dan - JunYanG~
toking to : zhi qiang,xiaoboi n yong beng...
doing : msning,blogging,changing moi profile....
missing/thinking of : hmmm....

Topic : StreSs with mOi stupid lIfe...

Hmm...feeling so left out in tis world...maybe is bcos most of moi jiemei are now busy wif their relation with their loves one...everytime when they are toking abt their stead i will jus sit down quietly n listen to moi songs...i dun wanna hear their story...maybe i envy them...haf been quite sometime for not stepping into a relation...hmm...wat will i get in return...jus heart break...into many many pieces...is not tat i dun wanna stead...is i will keep tinking how my ex treat mii...i noe...dun compare..but i can't..i scare moi nxt relation will be like moi previous one..i noe it is not fair....love isn't fair anyway...hmm...i'm always felt so jealous & sad when i see couple on the street den i will keep tinking....y can't i jus be like them?have a proper relation...i noe behind their back might be quarrel...love is lidat....ups and downs...so we mus learn to overcome...if we can't,we shouldn't try...

Sometime i really feel like giving alvin one more chance de...but when i tink back,i dun feel like le...rmb how he neglect mii when we stead...although oni a short time...i rmb all those day we r together...the movie we watch and everything lo....

aBout ming qun lehx...tat's the guy i really love alot...but yet he hurt mii the most....i duno wat r really on his mind when the day he left mii...i noe..he like another gal liao le...i mus give up n be fair...let him go find his dream gal...his happiness...hmm...we have the most memories together....all those movie we watch,moi bday bbq,outing we went...those time at chalet...walking under the sky to watch the stars...and i will nv forget a day...we went to boat quay...wif jia peng n maine den junlin oso....so romantic..n all those foto we took together....but tis are all past....i noe u n i will nv be together again....i and you also lost contact le...u r in army life now...hope you really change n treasue&cherish everyone beside you...if not one day u will regret...i will forget u completely de...we have break for aldri 1 yr 4 mth plus le...times fly really really fast...is all over between you n mii...wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni shi ying wei wo tai ai ni...is the pharse i told u on 5 may 04..the day we break....anyway...i still miss ya....take care..

hmm....nowaday, i kept toking to francis on da fone at night...hmm....if others...they might tink tat we r a couple but we r not...we r jus fren toking on da fone...hmm...actually i oso duno y i always tok to fone wif him oso...erm...one day he say mii fan how?...opps...it's bn sometime we r toking on da fone...every night without fail...we really gt lot of thingy to tok...hmm...i noe you say u like mii...but why u jus wanna find such a ugly n fat gal like mii...a gal who noe nth...is not tat i dun wanna gif u a chance...is tat...i scare i might be heart broken again...we duno how long we can last..and now there's someone who is ur ex who love u so much...y not gif her the last chance..she more pretty den mii....anyway if u wanna wait...u wait lo...if not i won't force u de..if you dun feel like toking to mii on da fone liao tell mii oso kies...hmm..i noe i'm tinking too much liao le....u r really a nice n caring guy lo...heex...(dun fly up to the sky worx..)oppz! keke..

Den for xiaosin lehx....haven bn receiving his letter for quite a long time liao...maybe i send to the wrong address ba...hmm...i rather miss him lo...cos he really treat mii very very good...whenever i tink of him,i will jus take the foto we took together wif wendy n ah di to see..though is not nice but nvm...too bad tat u went in...if not we will be together long ago...when u went in, i did draw a book...a book tat consist oni ur story n moi story...the day we met...those day we r out...hope you will get a chance to see it when u come out...u really mus take good good care worx....i treat u as moi da ge now...when u come out den we shall see lo...miss ya lots worx....

Hmm...i dun really noe who i love or like now...so stress...haix...y mus there be love in tis world...it's really hurts lot of ppl lo...nv step into a relation for 4 mth liao...cos there's hurts...i will oni step into it when i really feel tat he won't hurt mii...i wanna cry again...it' really hurts lo....so wait for fate lo...now oni walk one step see one step liao le..maybe if i dun cherish those beside mii now..i might lost everything in the end....

Hmm...keep toking abt guy today...hehex...hmm..tml going out to celebrate maine bday...going to eat lo..meeting them at 6 i tink ba....hahas....really really really very long nv see moi jie mei liao le...hahas...i really miss them alot alot....

stop here le na....

love really hurts...so cherish n treasure everyone beside you now cos true love is hard to fing...dun be regret one day after you dun treasure...there's will be ups and down so both mus learn to forgive n forget....

-xiaomable-

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