Monday, November 29, 2004

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Listening To: Li Ge by Tension
Mood: Sad
Toking to: Maine & Gary
Playing sms wif: -

Topic: HeartBroken

Haiz...feeling very sad lo...He reply me liao le lo den i oso knew his answer B4 anyone told mi...i haf mention..you and i aren't meant to be together...no fate at all...So heartbroken cos i failed to walk into his heart...moi heart break into pieces after i heard tat...Trying moi very best not to shed a tears for you so i cnt listen to sad song if not tears just rolled down..But nvm lahx...I will zhu fu ni..Hope you will find ur happiness soon lo...HAiz....still gt one more paper to go leh...but no mood to study at all le..not to blame anyone but myself....I knew i'm ugly...where gt ppl wants...I still cnt give you up yet cos i really like ya...although i haf tried moi very best but i still failed lo...Nvm...i told myself tat i love you once in moi life and u will oni be moi kun jiang lo...Hope you will not avoid mi bahx...Hope we will still keep in contact lo....Haiz..Moi mind now is full of you lo...

Sian...later gt work lehx...actually start at 3 but i say i go at 6 cos oso no mood to work...ytd work from 3 oso no mood...duno wat i'm doing oso arhx.....later go work den see how lo...tis 2 days dun really haf enuff slp cos i cnt slp at nite....

I will be out of Singapore in 3 days liao le....so mus be happy but not tinking abt ya mahx...so mus take carez nehx.....

I will like to open chalet nxt yr during moi bday on jan...hope all moi fren will go cos i wan it to be an unforgetful bday party...I really hope you u will turn up too cos i will be inviting you too....i will invite everyone i knew....mus be happi when i go taiwan arhx...wanted to buy lot of thingy...lols....Many ppl noe abt moi problem liao le...Everyone hope i will try moi best to forget him lo...i oso hope so lo...anyway takez carez everyone....miss ya...Sarang Hae Yo.....
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6:45 AM

Friday, November 26, 2004

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Listening to: Endless Road
Thinking of: Still gt who lehx..other den him..
Mood: Hai haO lo..stress..
Toking tO:Jodi,linus,zhi wei,maine,kok,des,jun xian....
Playing Sms: -

Topic: StreSs lO..

Haiz...stress lehx...keep tinking of him....nv see him online oso....my friend ask mi to tell him the truth liao le..but i still dun haf the gut or the courage lo...the oni way now is to ask him to read moi blog lo...Watever the answer he gif mi will be the truth le lo...jus hoping tat he will come and read and noe himself...Cos i still cnt find the courage to let u noe...Everyday i gt problem,i will come to moi blog...haiz...no mood to study lehxx....tml gt efw paper...den now my whole mind is him....Can someone tell mi how?? I tink i shld let him noe le..if not i will be keep tinking...but i scare to hear the truth...I knew his answer..for sure is no lo...cos he doesn't fall in love easily at all...Time passes fast lo....No matter wat the answer is,i oso haf to face it...if u and i aren't meant to be together...nth can force...cos it will not lead to happiness but oni quarrel...if it is tat,i rather we be jus fren...cos i wan happiness...i wan you to love me willingly but not force to...I won't force anyone into relations de unless he oso agree lo....

Moi ideal boy is tat hoping to find a guy who oni love mi...understand mi...and take care of mi....but tis kind of person is hard to find....Nvm lo....

Now i like oni him lo....maybe he will not choose mi at all...maybe we r oni meant to be friends....I noe tat gt a gal like him too...and the gal is i hate her lots de...even b4 i noe she like him i aldri hates her le...cos of an incident...and i feel tat she so bhb...nvm....Maybe he will choose her,maybe not....maybe he gt the one he like liao...but i oso won't mind...jus bear in mind tat pls dun hurt ya can liao le...

I will be out of Singapore nxt wk le...i will be going to taiwan...Hope i can really enjoy dere lo...hope i won't tink so much...i will oni be back nxt sunday...i will be out for 5 days oni...Haiz...no mood to do everything lo...even for my efw paper tml...lidat how can i get A and pass to higher nitec...Sob Sob....I felt tat i like so long winded cos everytime when i update moi blog hor will be long entry de...I hate moi life now...Love sucks...cos i cnt be wif the one i like....Sarang hae yo....Aishiteru....

Haiz...maybe i jus a person who no one wants or love at all...maybe i born to be lidat...But moi life still haf to go on even if i face so much problem....i hope tat he will read moi blog and understand everything and let mi noe the answer....I haf been asking u alot of questions and i would like u to noe tat the person i'm toking is you and not anyone esle....if u rejected mi...hope u can still be moi fren like b4...Anyway i tink i shld stop here le....Update soon againz...maybe b4 i go taiwan or maybe after when i come back....Miss ya lots...-M-

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6:59 AM

Thursday, November 25, 2004

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Listening to: dUan dIaN
Thinking of:-M- againz
Mood:hai hao lo..
Toking tO: fLorence,ailinG,haNQuan,joDi
Playing sms wif: -

Topic of tHE day: Sianz...wIsh...wIsh...wISh...

hEre to update againz le...going to work soon....sIansation...so lazy lehx....finish first paper le...so happy lehx....now oni 2 more paper to go...lols...after nxt week i will be free le...haiz...ytd...halfway through,aircon broke down...so stupid rite...but complete all but sure no A liao le cos gt one not enuff time to print as moi com spoil halfway through and nid to change...waste moi time oni....haiz....nvm lahz...do better for moi 2 more paper lo...go higher nitec is a mus for mi...cos i promise everyone tat i will study hard....

hOW i wish to let him noe...but i do not haf the courage...scared being rejected is one of the reason...another is scare he will avoid mi...scare he dun wanna be friend wif ya....cos tis happen 2 yr back in moi life....2 yr ago...i like a guy for almost 2 yr plus...and when he noe i like him...he started to avoid mi and in the end we nv tok....but 2 yr later which is today...the same problem happen again in moi life...y can't i jus be wif the one i like and mus haf tis kind of problem...y can't it just leave mi...and i can be wif him...2 yr later which is few day ago...we being to tok but very pai seh when toking...we r not use to be like last time le...nvm lo..but i dun wan tis to happen to mi and kun jiang....if we r not meant to be together hor...nvm de...we jus be best friend lo...I will nv force love de...if we r not meant to be,we will nv be together...no point forcing cos it will nv lead to happines...If we r meant to be...we will sure be together one day....And one things...i really cnt stand PSG lehx...she say is her means is her...no one can haf him...but i dun care..i jus try moi best to be wif him...If ever one day,he tell mi tat we can oni be friend...i will not be upset cos i haf try moi best to achieve it...

Moi oni wish for the yr 2004 will be to be wif him and to pass moi exam lo....jus hope tat moi wish will come true worx....nOw many ppl agree wif mi tat love sucks...nvm....we r all strong gal k....xia yi ge hui geng hao de...Hope mi and him can be together...Hope to invite him to moi bday party nxt yr too....stop here le cos going to work le.....Miss him lots....takez carez....
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8:00 AM

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

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6:57 AM

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Thinking of: him againz lo
Listening to: Jie Kou
Toking to: Ke lun,maine,-M-
Mood: happy

Topic: Love sucks....

haiz....second entry of the day liao lo....but i can consider happy liao le....cos i'm chatting wif him in msn lo....Suan wo good le cos i dun tink even michelle haf the chance lo....waiting for Florence they all to online but nv see them online lehx....He told mi he had finish his exam liao le....today is his last paper liao le...so good...hao xian mu lo...today many ppl last paper....yet i oni starting tml....and end nxt week...haven go and take moi pay yet...tml maybe lo...

Do u all tink tat i shld gif a deadline to him cos i shldn't wait for him for so long rite...i rmb few yr back in moi life i did like a guy for 2 yrs but in the end i oso give up cos we r not meant to be at all...den few yr later which is today....i haf the same problem againz...wat tis....y mus moi life be so hard lehx...can't i jus be wif the one i love mehx...it haf been 2 mths liao le yet he duno anything at all...dun wanna let him noe at all le cos dun wanna get rejected lo....He did told mi tat he like to find a korea wife nxt time...and to my surprise he is a pure singaporean but not mix lo...Y mus dere be love in tis world lehx....Love really sucks lo but still nid to go on wif life lo......sometime guys suck too....lots of empty promises...say oni love ya but in the end he oso leave you...so it's hard to find true love.....Sometime love is oso very xinfu lo...cos not lonely mahx....jus wanna let him noe tat i did love him once b4 lo....nvm if we r not meant to be together...i will try to give up soon....as everything had a beginning will haf it's end....so no point tinking so much abt it...but moi last wish for the yr 2004 will be to be wif him lo....nvm if we r not together lo....as long as we r friends....sO jus to let u noe tat i once love u deep b4...anyway no stead oso nvm de...as long as i gt friend jiu can liao le...waiting for nxt wk to come....going oversea liao plus highlighting moi hair too.....Miss ya...
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10:03 AM

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Listening to:Jiang nan
Thinking of:-M- of course lahx
Doing:using com lo
tOking to:nO one cos msn cnt log in

Realli long nv update liao hor...sure will be a long entry againz...haiz...tml start moi first paper liao le lo...Bsa paper lehx...really hate it lo...oni 2 hrs mus complete Microsoft Excel and Access....Excel will be ok for mi de but for access....reallt cnt make it lo...but i will make sure myself to get a A for it...cos i wanna pass moi nitec mahx....go watever campus i will not mind le...But hope to go religional campus to take up Accounting course lo...if not stay at Clementi to take up E-commerce or Admin....i jus wanna pass moi nitec wif a gpa of 2.8 bahx...i nid to study really hard for it as i seldom touch book de..i haf been kinda lazy cos i nv went to sch for almost 2 week..since last wed which is the 11...haiz...and tat the time i last saw him lo...sO sad lehxx...going to grad soon den jiu cnt see him liao le...My oni wish is jus to see him everyday lo....haiz...nvm...perhap tis is fate lo....Moi 2nd paper will be on friday which will be efw paper....dun really haf hope on tis paper but i oso nid a A too cos my bpf paper i gt B liao le....nid at least 2 A to pass mahx....and moi last paper will be on Monday lo...which will be RTO...tis paper i dun even haf hope to pass cos really hard...jus a B will do le....hope moi project will help lo....wanna go higher nitec cos dun wanna give up so fast..and cos my les cum aiai aka jiemei oso wanna go so i can join her....Many ppl r struggling for their paper as they wanna pass mahx...s0 i here to wish all moi friends all their best to their exam lo....after exam we can really enjoy ourself...dun forget our date to sentosa worx...

2 days after moi exam end which is the 1st of Dec,i will not be in Spore cos i'm going to fly to taiwan le....so i cnt see moi friend for a week...i will sure miss everyone when i'm there and i will miss -M- the most....Sry moi fren if u r jealous cos i miss him most.....cos i really like him lo....I like him for going to 2 mths liao le but yet he dunno at all...I admit tat i do not haf the gut to let him noe lo...but wat if he noe lehx...he oso will not do anything de cos i dun tink he will like mi de...we r now friend le cos i gt to noe him in friendster although we r from the same sch lo...I'm really missing him very badly lo....oso tinking of him everyday too...really cnt stop tinking of him lehx...could someone let -M- noe tat i like him lots or jus hope tat he had read mOi blog lo den he will noe le...last friday i saw his one of his friend at town lo...tot will see him oso but nv....if i haf the gut to tell him tat i like him hor,wat if he reject lehx....will be still be friend ant....so tis is one reason y i dun wanna tell him i like him lo....cos i'm scare to get rejected...maybe i will tell him one day and maybe not...jus hope tat we can really be together will be moi last wish for tis yr....Tis yr really passes by fast lo...moi bday coming soon again liao le....moi 18th lehz...duno wanna go where celebrate....still tinking lo...if any of moi friend tell him tat i like him i will not blame anyone le cos i really like him....he will be forever moi only one kun jiang boy lo.....tink stop here le bahx....takez carez peeps.....Miss him lots......gOod luck in uR coming exam too...Ciaos....

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6:27 AM

Monday, November 22, 2004

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

Listening to: pei ni kan ri chu<--chai chun jia
Thinking of: him againz lo...
Mood: hai hao lo
Toking to: -
Doing: checking friendster & learning for my exam tml...

Topic oF thE dAY:Sec eNtRY lE....

tiS iSh the sEcond enTrY liaO le...nOt realli in the mood to study lo cos keep tinking of him....Y mus dere be love in this world lehz...it's hurts many ppl lehx...i haf like him for abt two mths liao le rite....shld u all tink i shld gif a deadline to him cos wat if he dun love mi at all and i still wait for him lehz..i rmb few yr back,in moi life,i haf like a guy for 2 yrs plus,in the end,i still give up as i noe tat we will not have the chance lo...and at tat time,i rejected every guy who come to mi....Few yr later,which is today,i'm met wif the same problem....How?Actually dere oni one things i can describe wat is love will be love jus sucks lo...For mi...some guy sucks too...they bluff the relationship oni,they jus treat love as a game....They can change and change...tis is not called love ok...iF u really loves he/she,u will stay wif him/her like glue and nv let go...But if u really find someone which u love,u will always say tat it is so xin fu cos u will not be lonely le mahx...

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5:16 PM

Saturday, November 06, 2004

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

It's been half a yr since we break up wif moi fav ex...since 5 may lehx...half yr lehx....very fast lehx...ytd,i dream of him againz..haiz...i dun wish to dream of him again cos i noe tat we will nv be together againx...i dun wanna be sad again le...if i'm sad,i will not tok to anyone de...i dun wanna be lonely liao....I wanna gif him up le...cos i dun wanna the three triangle love...although none of us is together...I dun wanna fall in love wif guy le...cos hafing a crush on other is really hurting...I will wait for them to come and love mi...I find tat everytime i love a person,i will nv get the person...so why not i wait for them to come...I dun wanna tink so much le....cos i wanna study hard...i wanna pass mOi nitec to higher nitec...GOing to sImei if possible for higher nitec for accounting course...tIS few day feeling kinda sad and sick....sad cos nv see him mahz...for 3 day le worz...wanna reformat mOi com at hme later...duno whether still can use mahx...if can jiu good arhx...lols...den u all can see mi online againx...wO hao jiu hao jiu nv online chat wif fren le...duno whether they misses me ant..lols...jk nahx...hahaz...cut moi fringe on tuesday nahx...tink become more nicer le bahx...mi going to grad from ite clementi le...so sad...cnt see moi friends liao le...and oso those i wanna see...haiz....I feel very lonely sometime lehx...cos no one to accompany lo...feel like crying but i didn't cos not worth to cry lo...
Tat day went to Town wif maine lehx...den see lots of ppl....lols...all our sch de...from far east to hmv to cine...all oso gt ite clementi de ppl...lols...first time go out gt so many ppl i seen b4...where mine kun jiang face lehx....nv seen him for the past few day....Oh ya....tuesday i oso went out wif Raymond...to suntec to watch the doll master...actually Roy wanna meet ya but in the end oso nv...nvm nahx...haiz...tml got work againx...........see ppl face oso sian....now viewing moi friendster account...but till today i still cnt view mOi testimonials lehx......tink stop here bahx....going for moi bpf test soon le bahx.....wish everyone good luck ya.....stOp hEre bahx...takez Carez...and miss him lots...

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2:00 AM

Monday, November 01, 2004

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU

here to update mOi blog againx le..hehe...when dID i lasT update lehx...tink last fridae bahx...hahaz...fridae go out wif mOi aiai to town lehx...den see alot of ppl from mOI sch de...lolx..fridae nv see mOi kun jiang boy lehx...hahaz....but see mOi jia meng zhong in sch lo...den hor...i hit moi leg on fridae..now gt one blueblack...ytd as usual go work in the afternoon..den ytd so gd sia....knock off at ten lehx...den roy they all oso...den go find raymond at clarke quay cos he watching soccer...den we jiu go starbuck lo....go la kopi...hahaz....den take last train back...actually wanto go out again but in the end nv...today jiu go bugis wif wendy lo....hahaz....take foto againx.....Diaox....hahaz....Raymond jus now msg mi to tell mi tat he say he find tat roy like mi...haiz....i ask him dun anyhow say...hahaz...now online arhx...long time nv online..hahaz....chatting wif junichi lehxx....he still rmb mi lehx...tot he forget mi le...orhx....haha....gt one very handsome de guy...haha....ppl say he look like kunda lahzx....i now at his hse using hiss com...he very GOOD lehx....hahaz...nv reject mi to use b4...lolx.....wanna get to noe him ant....hahaz....jus let mi noe and i will intro him to u lo....lols...come come...i intro him now....whahaz....joking nahxx....see him from mOi friendster lahx....name is desmond worxz....lols....hahaz....stop moi joke le bahx...lols....update againx soon....bleaghx....

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1:17 PM